my long lost poem

This is the poem that I have made 3 years ago…. It is kind of weird I think, lols, enjoy! I think I made this when I was really stressed, or maybe when I really hate someone, but I can’t really tell the truth because she is my best friend….

to the west and to the east
I kneel
to the north and to the south
I bow

to all of direction
I pray
for all of us be realeased from torment
from being stray

because I had a bad day
today is such a disarray
tangled by the chain of pain
as soon as you step on its terrain

oh dear, oh dear
wonder when it will untie me
it’s okay albeit it’s only the rear
i will always play the chain melody of do-re-mi

oh tell me please
when will the time come?
when there will be no skirmish
or will all of us become gum?

chewed
then spitted out
the most useless beings in the world
so don’t pout

just let me free
untie me
release me
and hang that stupid being at tree!!

shoot it
kill it
banish it
free me from it!!!!

8/8/10

OH YES,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Roger Federer!!!

who is 29 y’old this year!! =)

hope u will be better and better in tennis!!! =)

listings…. (of something that is not important)

okay, it has been a veeeerrryyy long time since i last wrote on the blog…meh eh eh

first: i have done the IELTS test!!!!! and it’s 6.5 ahahaaa, so bad… especially the writing, dammit… my writing is always bad in Indonesian, what about in English?! OF COURSE, worse…  or maybe it’s because my grammar is bad so the score is low??

second: the piano exam is NEXT WEEK, oh my, oh my…. and the pieces are still in a mess….

third: i think, i have found what major i wanna take!!! it’s architecture!! hm, can i success in that area…….

fourth: mama miaaaa….. i’m gonna be bald in the 30-ies, maybe, there is a hairfall in my house!! not a waterfall, and its source is mine!! huhuhuhu….

fifth: i have given up on him…..

sixth: apparently i don’t need IELTS score for attending university… and I have not register my name to the university yet, actually, i still have not chosen which university i wanna attend….

seventh: i keep getting on dreams seeing the person that i detest from elementary school being so friendly with me and my friends, weird huh? and 1 more dream, which is about that guy who i had a crush before, walking together with a girl i detest from high school, and that girl gives me a cynical smile…..

eight: i started playing baking life, lol, what’s with this?! and pico too, i play it!!

ninth: i love kuroshitsuji!!! but i think it will be very scary if a butler like that exists….

tenth: i don’t know that to say, let’s put an end to this post…LOL

eleventh: i think i am going nuts….

confused….

okay then, the real reason I write in this blog, just to improve my writing skills, which is very very bad….. because I wanna practice, coz I wanna go abroad for university

And now, I am being tangled by the strings of confusion….. I am confused, is the major that I have chosen is the right one?

I am going to take january class, but I don’t think it is possible…

I have not taken any IELTS test…which is a DEFINITELY YES certificate that you need in order to go abroad…. and the minimal score for the university that I want to attend is 650-700…. My friends don’t even get 550!!!! ME, 650 till 700?? WHAT THE….huff

then, there are still soooo many to be prepared… the UAI or now is called ATAR for the major that I want to take is 97.30 (fall 2010), and the requirements for taking the major are: I have to make a personal statement and 10 products of arts, including the demonstration, in a CD…and how do I do that?? well, that is the requirements for the first university… FOR the 2nd, the UAI is 86 or something like that…and I have not opened its website for further information…

and I am not from its country but I have got permission to stay there (PR), so then, I am being included as a local student…but where do I get the UAI score??????? I am confused again in that matter….huff…..

and what about my speaking, I think it is really not fluent, and has so many grammatical errors….my vocab, my listening skills….. maybe I will just be a failure person in the future….

i’m outta the place!!!

oh yeah, finally, i got out from the boring place, which is vair not comfortable and just makes u stressed out, which is HOSPITAL, omaigood… Finally I got out from there!!!

I got attacked by a sudden mist of mosquitoes blood walking inside my blood’s veins, which made me got a dengue fever, damn…. my platelets dropped till 67.700, that was the lowest, but thank you, thank you, it rose up in the eight day, although it only rose till 76.000, and the next day it rose up to 147.000. Oh MAN, it’s like I have just got married or whatever that is, I felt so vair damned happy!!!!!!!! HAHA

BUT, because I got diarrhea too, so I got out from the hospital in the following day. And now, I am not allowed to eat chillied and coconut milked also fried food, HUHU…… but it’s okay though, I don’t have to eat any porridge, I am sick of eating porridge for more than a week!!!!!

Well, thanks for the assistance though, Mr. Doctor Titos and Ms. Nurses (Aprillia, Amanda, the pregnant one, Nopita, and I forgot their names), also my parents and siblings, I LOVE YOU…..

Hmm, what I just babbled out to you guys, just ignore-vous it…hahaa….I am just typing because I am soooo happy you know… I just got out from the hospital two days ago…. My skin right now is like a polkadot patterned clothes y’know, even my Dad wants to take pictures of it so many times, HUFF…..

THANK YOU, againn…. >.<