LOVE YOUUU….

oh man, dammitttt….why words like ” I LOVE YOU”, three words and eight alphabets cannot come out easily……

I have like him from the 2nd grade of senior high school, but till know, it has been more than a year, maybe, and still no development because of my friend keep bugging us, so he keeps a distance from me so nobody bully us, huhhhh……

I’m so sad………

I want to say those words, but don’t have any courage to do so, because I am shy, HAHA….

But still, I want to have someone whose age is older than me, he is older though, but only some months……huh…..confused….T.T

hm, what’s the title??

oh my, oh my, here comes emo again…huh

I’ve been thinking about these, y’know: “Who am I, where am I, and what am I?”. Hearing those questions makes the ears tickle a little bit, and it will make you crazy if you keep thinking about that thing!!!!!! Damn, and after I read a book yesterday, I keep thinking about that now, well, maybe if I write it here, I will forget about that, hahaaa

Sometimes I feel lonely, I think… Maybe that’s because I’m the youngest of four, and all of my siblings are abroad, and sometimes my parents can be annoying too, which make me feel lonely. But, annoying is better than when they are fighting y’know, stay quiet all the time each other but keep talking to me..haha, it’s kinda cute to see that (even parents still do that kind of thing!! I never imagine it before..hahaa), but the next day it will be okay again (maybe at night they talk each other when I’m not around? Who guess…)

And then, other reason is that I don’t really have that sort of called Best Friend. I do have, though, only one and she is far away, separated by many small islands and one big island…. The rest of the friends are just usual, only come asking or bother when they have a purpose, that sucks, haha, but I’m used to it, and the other friend, she already has a boyfriend, and of course I don’t want to be a fly, so I keep the distance from them, that’s why I think, I think, I don’t really have any friends to be called best friend, only “best friend” I have….huh

Hm, I do write a lot. maybe a lot than usual. Oh yeah, I’m going to be graduated from high school lately, which makes me sooooo happy, or not, hm?? But the bad news is i have to prepare the preparation to university soon, I have to take IELTS test and also, I don’t know, many more.

Then, for the final exam of piano, the song, as usual is very hard to play but good to hear (it’s usual, right??). For the exam, I play:

A1: Sonata in D minor by Cimarosa

B2: Allegro con brio- 1st movt from Sonata in B flat, Op. 24 No.2 by Clementi

C6: Alligator Crawl by Waller

Hm, the hardest from all, I might say it’s all of them! HAHA….. but it’s still 3 or 4 months left, I think I can play it well, right?????

I LOVE YOU………!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

a poem, or not?

well, I don’t know if this is a poem or not, but I wrote it when I was bored…..

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Blood,

will be shed everywhere…

the water will be red…

the land will be red…

this world will be red…

all because of blood…

war everywhere,

soldiers everywhere,

guns and arrow everywhere,

all died…

all disappeared…

all went out…

all vanished, into thin air…

no one lives…

the end of the world,

the planet will be red…

no blue color…

the sun will lose its light

then it will die…

then we will all die…

10 September 2006

just a little more….

well then, here I am again, writing in this blog…. It has been a very long time since I wrote the last, right?

Now I am currently doing my so-called final exams, and it has been two weeks, consisting of national exams, like: Mathematics, Indonesian Language, English, Physics, Chemistry, and Biology (for Science Class, for Social Class is different). It was last week, the national exam. For this week, I did practical exams, not pretty bad I say, but I made some silly mistakes, just as usual, hahaa, which of course, reduce my points. I will still be doing my practical exam till next Monday (maybe, if tomorrow is not a public holiday, next Monday the practical exam had finished already).

and the next following week, I will be doing my School’s Exams, which is, for me, is NOT VERY IMPORTANT, but I HAVE TO do it in order to graduate (sux, right), well, this is because, the lessons that will be in the exam are like: Religion, Civil, History, P.E, Computer, and Chinese Language… it’s just a waste of time, I think, or not??

Then, I am in no mood to write this actually, so if there are soooooo many errors in the grammar, I am deeply sorry to my teacher, haha…….

I am doing this just because I don’t have anything to do at the moment because my ds is out of battery, haha….