LOVE YOUUU….

oh man, dammitttt….why words like ” I LOVE YOU”, three words and eight alphabets cannot come out easily……

I have like him from the 2nd grade of senior high school, but till know, it has been more than a year, maybe, and still no development because of my friend keep bugging us, so he keeps a distance from me so nobody bully us, huhhhh……

I’m so sad………

I want to say those words, but don’t have any courage to do so, because I am shy, HAHA….

But still, I want to have someone whose age is older than me, he is older though, but only some months……huh…..confused….T.T

hm, what’s the title??

oh my, oh my, here comes emo again…huh

I’ve been thinking about these, y’know: “Who am I, where am I, and what am I?”. Hearing those questions makes the ears tickle a little bit, and it will make you crazy if you keep thinking about that thing!!!!!! Damn, and after I read a book yesterday, I keep thinking about that now, well, maybe if I write it here, I will forget about that, hahaaa

Sometimes I feel lonely, I think… Maybe that’s because I’m the youngest of four, and all of my siblings are abroad, and sometimes my parents can be annoying too, which make me feel lonely. But, annoying is better than when they are fighting y’know, stay quiet all the time each other but keep talking to me..haha, it’s kinda cute to see that (even parents still do that kind of thing!! I never imagine it before..hahaa), but the next day it will be okay again (maybe at night they talk each other when I’m not around? Who guess…)

And then, other reason is that I don’t really have that sort of called Best Friend. I do have, though, only one and she is far away, separated by many small islands and one big island…. The rest of the friends are just usual, only come asking or bother when they have a purpose, that sucks, haha, but I’m used to it, and the other friend, she already has a boyfriend, and of course I don’t want to be a fly, so I keep the distance from them, that’s why I think, I think, I don’t really have any friends to be called best friend, only “best friend” I have….huh

Hm, I do write a lot. maybe a lot than usual. Oh yeah, I’m going to be graduated from high school lately, which makes me sooooo happy, or not, hm?? But the bad news is i have to prepare the preparation to university soon, I have to take IELTS test and also, I don’t know, many more.

Then, for the final exam of piano, the song, as usual is very hard to play but good to hear (it’s usual, right??). For the exam, I play:

A1: Sonata in D minor by Cimarosa

B2: Allegro con brio- 1st movt from Sonata in B flat, Op. 24 No.2 by Clementi

C6: Alligator Crawl by Waller

Hm, the hardest from all, I might say it’s all of them! HAHA….. but it’s still 3 or 4 months left, I think I can play it well, right?????