the last week, i am filled with madness and anger, now is also actually…
FIRST, the member of the stupid council(okay, that’s the new name that i called them), regretted for joining it, I shoulda resign from the start, stupid thinking of me, think that maybe i can make a good relationship, but what? FUCK THEM!! They never told me anything, even if I asked them, they would answer like..something like that.. and members of them, at first still say hi or whatsoever like that, bu now, they just look at me, then throw they face away, well, who want to see u anyway, sucker? (well, some of them did not do that actually…but generally, yes!, even the one who is in the same division as me!)
okay then, this place, IS anger management, and I’m relieved that I joined this web…thank you…so I can release an express the emotion..
AND THEN….
my parents!!!!
whenever I’m playing the piano, or I have played the piano..they SOMETIMES commented so DAMN ANNOYING!!!! and that RUINED MY DAY!! and my PLAY!!!
Last week, when I have finished playing piano, my mom said “Maennya salah-salah ya, lagu baru ya?”
When I just want to say sumthin, my dad said ” Emangnya pernah maen bener semua? Tiap kali juga selalu salah maennya”
WHAT? WHAT? I was being pumped at that time……..!!!!!!!!!!!! When I was practicing for the exam, do you think that I played all wrong????? He does not, NEVER know about my play about piano!!!!!!!!!!!! DAMN!!
and then, TODAY…..when I was playing the piano, I played one of Chopin’s song, that need EXPRESSSION, and FEELING inside….okay, then,, feeling, so the style is free right…here slow, then there a little fast, all depends on me…but what my mom said? “Si sua li!” (sembarangan maen) WHAT? so I have to play like a robot, no feeling? when i played with no feeling, my teacher scold me, she told me to give some feeling, when I have got the feeling of the song, my mom scold me that I played freely, sembarangan maksudnya…so damn annoying!!
Then, it is yesterday, when I told my mom that I have remedial today, and after that, I went into bathroom. My dad who heard that I will get home later, he asked my mom, why, then she said that I have to had a remedial. Then he asked, what remedial? Then she asnwered, “maths”, then you know what he said? “I e mat emang bo sui ma, emang be hiau mat ma” (dia punya emat emang gak bagus, dia kaga bisa mat kan)….WHAT? he thinks that I am ALWAYS stupid at math! and he thinks that I am the only one who takes remedial, he did not know, that all students in my class, except one, have to do it!!!! (okay, I eavesdropped, because I was at the bathroom) Okay, maybe I am too overreacted, but hell yeah, the last week, I have got so many homeworks and exams, plus hearing that kind of thing?
AND THEN, i have got 2 cleaners in my house, came yesterday, and they are kinda like..weird…the old one, age 25 is not really weird, but the small one, she said that she is 15, but I cannot believe it, because it looks like that she is only 12 or 13. And they work SO DAMN SLOW…. can you imagine, how someone wash the dishes so slow? almost half hour only for several dishes? then, she eats, almost one hour, only for a plate of rice, then, only for make the plate dry, she has to weep it for almost an half hour too, the amount is only several too….
Man, that was a pumping week…and I really wanna to **** them, excluding my parents of course….
