liars

They’re all dead,

think that they’re nice but to be true they’re just acting

a bunch of nasty and also disgusting also detestable human beings..

do they really despise me so much?

am i nothing to them?

i know that i’m a burden to them

but i have tried ..

then, if they hate me so much, why don’t they say so?

afraid to hurt me? nay, don’t think that you guys have that feeling

fine, thanks! but unfortunately i don’t need that stupid kind of kindness

I asked nicely then you replied rudely,

I asked whether you know or not, but you said that you don’t know but the truth you know about it…

so just back off!! you despicable human beings!! Liars…

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Life?

I need love

For this boring and lifeless life

I am a soulless human being

Why can’t I find my happiness in my life.

Is it true then, that happiness is just an illusion, that itactually  never exists

“Live life to the fullest”,

easy to say, but hard to do

“Live as this day is your last day on earth”

What does that even mean,

bullshit

If this day is may last day,

why do I have to think so hard about what will i do in the future?

why do I have to study hard for tomorrow’s exams, or go to school?

I would be better stay at home and do the things that I want..

with my family…. right?

Visit my favorite places, and eat the most delicious and expensive cake ever made in the world, with my family… Then kiss them with all of my heart…and say sorry and that kinda things….

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00.03 Sun 14 Dec 08

Friends or “Friends”?

well, i wrote this maybe last month, when I am really pissed off with my friends..

Friends?

Where are they?

What are they?

They only use each other, are that true friends?

Isn’t that just like master and the puppet?

Being used, when it is useless,

It will be ignored, or even be forgotten, be disposed..

They want to be helped, but do not want to help

They do not want to be ignored, yet they ignore others…

Aren’t friends the worst rivals?

The worst human being in the world?

They betray each other,

Fight each other

They are trash, even worse than trash…

They said, “You are my best and true friend”, the one who heard it might be happy,

However, the next day you see them, they can ignore you,

Do not ever think that friends can be trusted; they can stab u from the back

They are hypocrites…

…

But, without them, we will be alone….

No one is perfect…

Friends may sometimes drive us crazy, drive us mad and crossed…

But, sometimes they can also help us, calm us down..

Some positives, some negatives….

Choose friends carefully…..

And do not act to kind, or you will be used by them, and do not be to unkind too, because you will be ignored by them,….

Poem, part one

So, you have changed…

everybody changes…why? why?

it hurts….

every time you ignored me,

it’s like being stabbed…

how can u be so cruel?

don’t u love me anymore?

where is the passion?

where is the feeling?

where did you hide it?

do you want it just end like this?

At first, my life is full of blossoming flowers,

and growing trees

and now, it is full of wilted flowers,

and rotten trees….

it is so miserable…..and so full of despair…

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